Looking good for my sugar daddy.

As a sugarbabe, my appearance is my number one investment. It's not enough to be "cute" - you have to take the necessary steps to transform yourself into a knock-out. A man isn't paying 2000+ a month for a "girl-next-door", he's paying for a fantasy woman, an idealization of beauty and femininity. Boston is a good example of this - he LOVES women in high heels.

So, here are some steps I've been looking into to keep myself in tip-top shape:

1) Face - skin should be luminous, flawless, poreless: airbrushed magazine-model skin. Sadly, I was not born to have this kind of skin naturally (I've got mild acne, big pores, and hyperpigmentation on my cheeks left over from previous pimples) and I've spent the last 8 years of my life trying to figure out how to make my skin look perfect at all times. Not to mention, now, at age 20, I have noticed the very beginnings of *gasp* fine lines on my forehead! They're almost definitely not noticeable to anyone but me, but I make a lot of facial expressions during the day which cause my forehead to crease, and I only just noticed how much older forehead creases make you look. I blame my dad - he's got one of those foreheads that's creased in such a way where it looks like you could flip his face upside down and he'd still be making the same expression.

I've been hearing all kinds of good things about the old stand-by Retin-A, and I'm eager to try it. Peope all over the internet hail it as the miracle skin cream - it pushes all the crap out of your pores, increases collagen, fades fine lines and some pigmentation, and exfoliates off the top layers of skin. The down-side is that before you can get to the awesomeness of the new skin, you have to deal with all your below-the-surface break-outs coming up and with the dead layers of outer skin sloughing off - which means redness, dryness, peeling, flaking, itching, tightness, and super-sensitivity to sun.

Obv. I'm too broke to afford an 80$ doctor's visit for prescription for a 180$ tube of medication (what the hell is wrong with this country?), but I found an online mexican pharmacy (yeah, I know how sketch that sounds, but I've found multiple good reviews for it) that will ship various strengths of Retin-A for suuuuuper-cheap (Less than 30 a tube, plus 10 bucks shipping) WITHOUT a prescription. Even Retin A Micro. All this stuff is available OTC in Mexico, how cool is tht? Yeah, I'm self-medicating, and it's semi-dangerous, but I've read A LOT about Retin-A and I think I know at least somewhat what I'm getting into. I remember at like age 15 sampling some of my friend's tube when I was over at her house for a sleep-over, and the next day my skin peeling off like crazy. I can deal with that again.

Sadly I don't have the cash on hand right now even for a 35 dollar order, but assuming that this thing with Boston works out, it'll be right at the top of my list. At least for the current moment my skin is behaving, aside from a couple of small scabs from an at-home glycolic acid peel - can you tell I like Doing It Myself?

2) Body. A well-taken-care-of body is almost as important as a pretty face. After all, you have a great deal more control over what your body looks like than over what your face looks like. I've already got a very respectable body (it's what made me consider sugar-babying in the first place) with great measurements - 5'7'', 127 lbs, 36-26-36. I'd like to get my waist size down, but that may or may not be in the genetic cards for me. I've also noticed a bit more jiggle in the love-handles/bottom area and would like to lose about 5 to 8 pounds to correct that jiggling.

Luckily my hobby - martial arts - keeps me doing active cardio at least an hour twice a week, but that's not really enough. When my cashflow starts up I'm going to buy myself a decent-set of running shoes - running is good for heart AND the hips! Plus, as I found out about a month ago, runner's high is not just a myth runners use to trick you into joining their masochistic cult - it's a REAL high and it feels AMAZING. I don't know why so many people use illegal drugs (though I do think many illegal drugs should be legal - but that's another post) when there are so many legal ways to get high.

My current favorite eating-healthy tip: unsweetened applesauce is the BEST "diet" food ever. It's a super cheap (less than 2 bucks for that giant bottle) way to get a serving of fruit, and at 50 calories for a half-cup (a more than ample serving size) I don't feel bad for snacking on it throughout the day.

3) Clothes are the third part of the puzzle. Simply put, if possible you should dress like you don't need his money. Successful people like being seen with other well-put-together people. If you're a starving student and have trouble dressing to the nines every time you see your sugardaddy, at the very least invest in good lingerie and shoes.

My current issue is - Boston likes heels, and I wore my nicest pair (silver with turquoise ribbons) on our first meeting. I only have a few more pairs. Hoping he'll spot me some assistance before I run out of heels to impress him with. Of course I could go with the "Maybe if I wear the same pairs a few times he'll decide it's time to spoil me" train of SB logic. It's all a game, and I'm still learning the rules.

I've rambled on long enough. Will post again when I have some new developments.