Financial Considerations

Big news: I'm famous! Or at least, infamous. The wonderful SA blog quoted some of my questions.

Check it out here: http://www.seekingarrangement.com/blog/?p=175

Ugh, not feeling too sexy today. First day of my period. It's occurred to me that if I get an SD I'm going to have to be *extremely* scrupulous about keeping track of exactly when my period is going to come - both to guard against pregnancy and to prevent embarrassing surprises. My period is sort of my arch nemisis - it likes to fake me out with PMS symptoms for a few days, then lay low for a few, then sneak attack me. This also kind of throws things off - I was planning on seducing Boston this week so I could get the cash from him that I need to pay the beginning-of-the-month bills. Instead, it looks like it's time to sell the 55 inch TV. I'm a little sad - I love that TV - but if I get money from Boston next week then I can buy us an even nicer one - maybe something flat we could hang on the wall.


Not that there aren't plenty of ways to satisfy a man during that time of the month, but I'd be really happy if I could avoid feeling all bloated and messy and back-achey during our first kiss and/or make-out session.

I wonder how to bring up finances - I'm guessing we should go on Date Number Two and at least kiss and hold hands to see if there's a sexual spark there. We talked for a good hour before and have enough common interests to be friendly acquaintances, but who knows where the passion comes from?

I want this to be real - I don't want to have to fake this. In an ideal world, I would expect this to be a whirl-wind romance with my hormone-puzzle-piece-fitting partner. But this isn't Utopia, it's plain old crappy reality. And I know that in reality, for 2000+ a month, I would be willing to fake a couple of orgasms. God knows I've faked plenty before for free.

Which brings me back to money - I was originally looking for 2000 a month. 1200 for living expenses, 800 for fun. But on Boston's SA profile, his assistance range was 3K to 5K.

Now, I don't need 5K a month. I'm pretty sure having that much disposable income would simply encourage fiscal irresponsibility. Unlike the US government, I don't feel comfortable wasting thousands of dollars of someone else's money on frivolous things. Besides which, at a 5K/mo budget, I would feel uncomfortably indebted to him. Indentured, even. I would feel terrible any time he asked to see me and I couldn't because of work or school. I would never feel able to say No to him if he asked for something sexually I wasn't into, because then I would feel like a bad investment.

That said, I am an American and a staunch capitalist, and seeing a higher money-making potential than I originally anticipated is making bells and bright lights go off in my head. I know I would be a fool to accept less from a man who can easily afford it. So, the question of the day is, should I ask for 2500 or 3000/mo? I'm thinking I'll ask for 3000, and let him bargain me down if he likes. Or who knows? He might be totally fine with 3K and I'm just being neurotic. It's all just semantics to me at this point - once I have my monthly bills paid and a little put away for a rainy day, all the rest is just for fun anyway.

Thank god I have this blog to think out-loud on.