I'm not sure I have the courage for this...plus, good advice.

I'm laying around in my bed, naked, with the window open and the glorious spring weather rushing in. Got my cell phone here...trying to make myself text Boston so that he knows I'm available all day today. To get this sugar train rolling we need to have a second date during which we have a little sexy time and I get him aroused. Then he will be putty in my hands, so to speak. Wannabe Sugarbaby has a great post about this on her long-abandoned blog. She says:

"First off, try to get a feel for how generous he will be by the places he takes you to and how well he tips. Next make sure you're into him and he's into you, take your time here, go on a few dates if you need to. Finally when you feel the time his right (basically you both click and he wants you sexually) bring up the topic by saying he's wonderful and you like him a lot but you have certain needs as well....You can kiss and fool around, but NO sex (oral included) until he begins to help you. Capice?"

So, yeah. I'm in a tricky spot right now. I need to go buy a new skirt before I see Boston again - I have a feeling that would expedite the process of making him my SD considerably. Plus I need to finish all this up by 6 PM, ideally, as that's when my boyfriend gets home from work.

Wish he would chase me a little bit more than I'm chasing him. It's frustrating. But I guess I'm only letting myself be frustrated by it because I'm placing him above me as "the more important person in the realtionship." When really, we should be on equal ground. We both have something to give, and we both want something. I wish I knew more about game theory.

Ok, texting him now.

Hey [Boston], it's [me]. Are you free to hang out today? If not its cool - I'm on spring break so I'm available all week. Let me know.

Message sent. Trying to keep it light but specific. Decided against a smiley at the end. Ok, officially time to shower and put on clothes now. I'll keep you updated when he texts back. He's glued to his blackberry so it shouldn't take long.

Also might be ordering my retin-A cream today...we'll see. Depends on what he texts back.